Everything just feels so oppressive
I don't know what to do anymore. Everybody are blaming me about things I haven't even done.
My friend requires me to fake my real feelings... I just can't do it.
I started to be afraid of going to confirmation becoz of things I'm going through now.
Now when I think about it, I'm pretty afraid about everything.
Almost everyone judge me by the things I like or the way I look.
Even sitting in class with someone another than ~Haddonfielder
feels so oppressive because they always look at me like ' Why in the fuck you have to be here'.
My 'friends' even play with the things I'm scared about. Sometimes they take spider and try to throw it on me, I know it sounds so stupid but I really scare it so badly that it can make me cry in fear. I have really bad arachnophobia that nobody really seem to understand.
I feel like I don't know anything anymore
I just want to get away..